Law school is challenging. Personally, I'm learning how to juggle the different commitments that I have in my life and often feel like I'm dropping multiple balls at once. It's hard to go back to work after having a baby, yet women all over the world do it. It's hard to be a mom and a college student, yet women do it all the time. I can start having a pity party for myself because I'm tired or overwhelmed, but then I meet a single mom who is doing so much more than I am, or a young twenty-something dealing with a terminally ill family member, or a woman with her house full of teenagers and elderly and ill parents, and she's finishing her B.A. and applying for grad school. Nothing like cold reality to help me gain some perspective.
While I feel so incredibly blessed to be able to have this opportunity to be able to pursue my career dreams and go back to school, and be able have an incredible family as well, often I feel like a failure. I'll struggle with feelings of inadequacy, that I could be doing everything better, with more focus, or at least more speed.
I have to just focus on keeping the balls that I'm currently juggling in the air. I keep reading these verses over and over to myself, trying to focus on being content, and at peace, no matter what the circumstances are. At this time in my life I'm crazy busy, but that's ok, because I truly believe that through God I have the strength to do all of this.
11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength. -- Philippians 4:11-13